That's just messed up...

2006-05-02T04:06:00.000+01:00

Luke just got back from THE MOST AMAZING NIGHTS EVER EVER EVEREVER!!!
Ok this is a special edition of the Loco-Blog as this has deserves a mention!
Right then; I was invited to go to a Channel 4 party in London. Didn't really know much about it except that there was a free bar, all single women and get 2 be on TV! SO yeah it was a party for some lame TV Show called 'Seduction School' where some guys that know NOTHING about women go and have lessons from some American guru called Wayne (who by his own admission is not as cool as Will Smith and is therefore NOT the white 'Hitch' as I suggested!!) Anyways there was this private party at a club called Jewel in Soho, which was ok. So I was on the Jack and Coke and chatting to the Ladies when I met this FINE chick called Katy Fox. Yes. That's her real name!!! She looked like a Bond-girl to match her name! Even had a tattoo saying 'Foxy' lol. So yeah I was chatting to her and her mate Roxy and we were having fun with the free drinks :oD.
Then I was chatting to the producer and I was like 'what are you guys doing after this??' and he was like oh, there's a private party over at China White's. So I'm like this sounds interesting and talk my way into an invite and get one for Katy Fox. We get there and there's crowds of people outside and LOADS of security. In we go and guess who's there?? None other than Jamie Foxx (no relation) , Kanye West, Jessica Alba (yeah baby...) and a bunch of other people! So we had a fantastico time partying at ANOTHER free bar, feeling like a rockstar long into the night. That night I decided that it probably wasn't the best option in the world to drive home so Katy Fox invited me back to her place which was fun. Next day was spent strolling around London. Went to Stamford bridge to see the champs which was cool and spent the rest of the day sunbathing and having a picnic in Hyde Park we also did 'other things' too as she had a short skirt on, but anyways. Ahem. Was the most fun I've had in ages and was very needed!
Then in the evening we went to the theatre and saw Chicago with Brooke Shields in it and had an aberdeen angus steak :oD then was time to say cheerio and then we spent about an hour looking for my car and when we DID find it it had a bloody wheel clamp on it! I decided to test out the only thing my Dad ever taught me to see if it worked; I jacked up the car, let down the tyre and the clamp came off easy as can be!!! Cheers Dad!!! So after that escapade I pumped up the tyre, drove home and I've just got back. I am very tired right now, you don't even understand.

2006-03-19T15:26:00.000Z

Well folks, after 77 glorious posts it is time for me to bid the land of internet blogging a fond farewell. It's been a great ride, hasn't it? However it would be terribly improper of me to do so without acknowledging those people that really have made it the experience that it was;

Kellie - What can I say baby, you keep doin' ur thing on idol and we'll meet up after. Promise!
Jess - Jess, Jess, Jess. What can I say about you? I think you know everything I could ever say to you. It's been swell Dollface x
The infamous Ricky Ricardo - See you in law on Tuesday :oD
Shanna - Hey toots, you still hate me? Hope things go great with Pete x
Rach - Yes you... Figured u shud get a mention. Get your ass to Uni and find someone that deserves you x
Sophie - Wherever you are, do the movie thing, read this n come find me x
Sam & Sarah - See you tuesday as well!
Danny-Boy - I've come to the conclusion that you're just very misunderstood and you're trying to do the right thing. Chase your dreams dude, however controversial they may be!
The Girls @ Spearmint Rhino - I love you all equally!!!
Emma - Will I ever get to see your belly-button again? I think 'no'.
Trish - I'm so, so glad things are working themselves out for you. Stay happy, don't let anyone treat you the way I did. I'm sorry x
Claire - It's cool that you got back with ur fella, take care of urself yeah?
The Dixie Chicks - You did some good tunes...
Dave - Maybe time to get another jumper mate? Just a thought...
Brad(ley) - Don't know you mate, but you piss me off..!
JADE - :oD Hey hunny, didn't think I'd forget a certified cutie such as yourself did you?!?! Anyone that laughs at my jokes gets a headstart in my estimation!
Zoe - I know nothing about u, but that was a wild night 'eh? :oD
Tracie - My pshrink, can't forget you now can I hun! (Partly cus ur messaging me continuously on msn right now!) But nah, ur a sweetie n def dnt look 109...
The Imperial Hotel - You guys are all legends even if u did overcharge me!!!
The casino chick - I should have done it, blatantly!!
Naomi - Where shall I begin? Or perhaps it would be more appropriate to say where shall I end? Ok here goes; I genuinely wish you and Paul all the happiness in the world. God knows you deserve some. I hope Paul really realises how lucky he is. Brasil, wow. I'm not going to criticise your choices, if they're right for you then go for it, don't hold anything back, live the dream.
Paul - Wow, ok. You did it mate. You got your dream gal and congratulations to you. Treat her right and you'll see that she's the perfect girlfriend. Sorry we never really got around to being friends, I really didn't have a problem with you. I hope you do know how lucky you really are. Take care of her for me, she's more special than you'll ever understand.
Nao's Pizza Hut friends that don't know me - I forgive you all, I'm not a bad guy I just made mistakes when it came to Nao. I accept this and would probably feel the same way about sum1 that hurt her. I only ever asked for a chance, but I guess it doesn't matter anymore.

I guess this is it, I'll leave you with Loco's take on life;

Never, EVER apologise for who you are or how you feel...

Love may not make the world go round, but it definitely makes the ride worthwhile.

That's it.

2006-03-17T15:14:00.000Z

That's it.

2006-03-17T14:22:00.000Z

Just got out of hospital but I don't want to talk about it

2006-03-13T21:19:00.000Z

Met up with Jade n Jeska was fun, did some singstar lol

That's it.

2006-03-12T19:13:00.000Z

IT'S OFFICIAL!

NAOMI IS A STUPID FUCKING SKANKY LITTLE BITCH AND I'M FAR TOO GOOD FOR HER MESSED UP BABYISH ATTITUDE PROBLEMS.

I thought it could work, I thought we could be friends or whatever but no. She's FAR too immature, stupid and fucked in the head for me. Life is going great for me and she'd only drag me down. I was talking to someone the other day about Nao and how we almost settled down together and they said that it would have been "the biggest mistake of my life" how true it was. I can't believe how much of a little kid she is with her little mood swings and the crying and the mind games. I think she needs to grow up and get a grip on reality.

My life is fine and dandy without her, I'm sure I'll find someone much better but I'm really not looking anymore. Everything is good, I'm happy. I guess they call this closure!!!

That REALLY IS it.

2006-03-12T18:42:00.000Z

Today was good. Spent the day chilling out and doing some college work. Took pup for a stroll up the white horse, was bloody FREEZING! There was some dude up there kinda kite boarding only he had those little skis, wud have prob been cool when there was snow like there was this morning. I feel sick, I've eaten crisps and chocolate today, there's been somewhat of a drought! I spoke to Charlotte today on msn, that was funny, haven't spoken to her in ages. She's quite the hottie lol.

Anyways that's it for now, got a bunch of people complaining am not talking on msn..!

That's all folks...

2006-03-11T23:19:00.000Z

On the fone 2 Jessica right now! She a cutie really isn't she..! I love the way she says 'Bill' it cracks me up every time. She's funny. I think she's swell.
She's reading me a poem right now to music. It's a really gud poem but she keeps laughing! She quite the pop idol as well :op Keep up the good work cutes ;oD
Ok well am done. Not so good at typing with one hand... :op

That's it.

2006-03-11T18:31:00.000Z

One Art

The art of losing isn't hard to master;
so many things seem filled with the intent
to be lost that their loss is no disaster.

Lose something every day. Accept the fluster
of lost door keys, the hour badly spent.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.

Then practice losing farther, losing faster:
places, and names, and where it was you meant
to travel. None of these will bring disaster.

I lost my mother's watch. And look! my last, or
next-to-last, of three loved houses went.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.

I lost two cities, lovely ones. And, vaster,
some realms I owned, two rivers, a continent.
I miss them, but it wasn't a disaster.

---Even losing you (the joking voice, a gesture
I love) I shan't have lied. It's evident
the art of losing's not too hard to master
though it may look like (Write it!) like disaster.

-- Elizabeth Bishop

2006-03-10T18:17:00.000Z

Pictures you won't see on the news or in any newspapers...

Soldiers praying...

Iraqi's and soldiers NOT fighting...

'A touch of humanity...'

Soldiers actually helping.

'The Letter Home'

That's it.

2006-03-10T16:33:00.000Z

Where is Nao incedently?? I called her mo last night and this morning to see if we could meet up @ college so I could give her her stuff back, but she didn't answer and then at college she wasn't sat with any of her buddies so I assume she wasn't there. Weird. Her attendance must be getting worryingly low...

2006-03-10T16:14:00.000Z

The weirdest thing just happened bordering on freaky and scary shit. Ok no, it just plain IS scary. I jus got home from college and was thinking about Nao on the way home cuz I dropped some of her stuff off @ her place. I really miss her, I know it's foolish and I probably shouldn't but I really do. I have been sorting through my stuff and I found a loada cards and stuff she'd given me and they are SO SWEET. I miss that like you won't believe. It's funny (and by funny I mean laugh or cry), I believe Nao is my soulmate, I really do. I really cannot believe that I let someone as amazing as her slip through my fingers. ANYWAY back to what I was saying, I was thinking about her and got into my room and said to myself that if I want to/should try to (can't remember exactly) get back with Nao our song; 'Come What May' will come on the radio. (The radio is off at this point) I turn the radio on and the very first words that come out are "You're still the one that I love, the only one I dream of, you're still the one I kiss good night!" I mean seriously, what are the chances??? Now THAT'S scary shit...

That's it.

2006-03-10T09:22:00.000Z

Spoke to Jess this morning, called her mobile to say hi but she said she was "busy" waiting for a train or something, I dunno. I only wanted to say hi! Meh, oh well we're friends so it's all good. She made that very VERY clear to me last night. When she stays over on Tuesday night she's sleeping in the spare room. Which is cool. Kinda. Well... here's the thing... Oh nevermind.
That's it.

2006-03-09T23:12:00.000Z

You know it's funny. Was talking to Nao in Sociology and she reminded me about the time she took me to this outdoor ratpack show in Glastonbury. I think it's about the most heartfelt thoughtful thing anyone has ever done for me. She packed a picnic and we drove out to see the show and it was absolutely amazing, I loved every second of it (even having to carry the foolishly heavy picnic basket about a hundred miles so we didn't have to pay parking!!!!) Nah, we had some good times and some great times. Shame Nao seems to forget these. There's no point having regrets, they don't work.

That's it.

2006-03-09T20:30:00.000Z

Started speaking to Jess' buddy Rachel, she seems like a sweetie. I don't think Jess wanted me to talk to her at first. Or something. Ok well nevermind, I'll write more later.
That's it.

2006-03-09T19:46:00.000Z

Yeah so nothing much to report today, I went for a run this morning. Did college, upset Nao then made her laugh. Uh. About it really! Am gonna watch a movie soon so look out 4 that review! I'm not sure wat El Rico is playing at with his incredibly laxed reviewing. I've been doing college work so I can hardly be expected to keep the site exciting FOREVER!

Took pup out. Uh. Sorry, that's all folks...

Looking 4ward 2 seeing Jess Tuesday but I really shouldn't be now should I. Well ok, am done.

That's it...

2006-03-08T22:42:00.000Z

All gud, Jessica called wen she got home from work. Had a lovely chat with Jade aka Roland and Miss Piggy on msn. Was fun, all the muppets together! Anyway that's all for this evening, was thinking about watching a flick seeings as my reviews are a little thin on the ground but I'm going to bed instead. Will watch 1 2moro for defo tho...

That's it.

2006-03-08T22:20:00.000Z

Jess is a MOOSE.
I told her that I'd put another pic of her on here and she got all stressed with me n sez she's not coming to Notts with me now. I really don't wanna drive up there by my own but I guess I'll have to. THEN when I tried to apologise she wouldn't pick up the fone!!!
Moose Moose Moose Moose MOOSE.

Ok, I'm done.
That's it.

2006-03-08T14:14:00.000Z

The weirdest thing just happened; I was watching neighbours (and yes I do realise it isn't real but I was more thinking about the situations than the characters) anyway there was the bit about Karl getting asked to be a witness for his ex wife's wedding as the groom was dying and they had to do it fast. Can you imagine what he must have been going through as the woman that he is still in love with tells someone else that he is 'the most wonderful man [she's] ever known' (the camera cuts back to him for his reaction). I dunno, it must be horrible. It's bad enough on the odd occasion when I have the misfortune to allow thoughts of Nao n Paul cross my mind *swallows the tiny bit of vomit that just rose in my throat* and just the things that used to be special between us that are now shared and her cuteness being shown to someone else. Weird huh. Having said that, I don't like the idea of Jessica sharing my ground-breaking, unparalleled and 'magical' techniques with other people! (I'm sure she's been taking notes!)

Me n Jess are all good, I love being her friend. We had a funny convo last night; she's convinced that if she asked me out I'd say yes in a second and doesn't believe that she's not my type!

Ok, yes I obviously like her but she's all kinds of wrong for me. And me for her for that matter!

Meh, is all good n jiggy baybeh!!!!

That's it.

2006-03-07T23:21:00.000Z

LOVE this song...

This romeo is bleeding

But you can't see his blood

It's nothing but some feelings

That this old dog kicked up

It's been raining since you left me

Now I'm drowning in the flood

You see I've always been a fighter

But without you I give up

Now I can't sing a love song

Like the way it's meant to be

Well, I guess I'm not that good anymore

But baby, that's just me

And I will love you, baby -Always

And I'll be there forever and a day - Always

I'll be there 'til the stars don't shine

'Til the heavens burst and The words don't rhyme

And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind

And I'll love you - Always

Now your pictures that you left behind

Are just memories of a different life

Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry

One that made you have to say goodbye

What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair

To touch your lips, to hold you near

When you say your prayers try to understand

I've made mistakes, I'm just a man

When he holds you close, when he pulls you near

When he says the words you've been needing to hear

I'll wish I was him 'cause those words are mine

To say to you till the end of time

Yeah, I will love you baby - Always

And I'll be there forever and a day - Always

If you told me to cry for you I could

If you told me to die for you I would

Take a look at my face

There's no price I won't pay

To say these words to you

Well, there ain't no luck

In these loaded dice

But baby if you give me just one more try

We can pack up our old dreams

And our old lives

We'll find a place where the sun still shines

And I will love you, baby - Always

And I'll be there forever and a day - Always

I'll be there till the stars don't shine

'Til the heavens burst and The words don't rhyme

And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind

And I'll love you - Always

Wow, powerful words. That's almost exactly how I felt a coupla months ago. Still do and always will, LOVE the song. The definitive power ballad.

2006-03-07T17:59:00.000Z

Well despite the odd remark about my bath blog today was a good day. Oh and the bath was great thanks. What's wrong with me enjoying my bath? Yeah so Law was interesting, bit of an arse really, we pretty much had 2 study lessons so I could have stayed at home. But then I would never have met Soph, or at least wouldn't have spoken to her for a while! I'll get to that in a minute...

Danny-Boy. What can I say? He got all huffy with me before he left, was rather comical! He was trying to initiate a political debate yet wouldn't let anyone else get a word in edgeways and that just pisses me off so in the end I got bored and put my movie back on! He went off on one after I asked him if he had a single original thought in his head, harsh perhaps but he likes to go off on one and doesn't seem to understand the fun of discussion and takes everything so seriously. He did one of his now customary rants and Sam n Sarah seemed quite bemused by the whole affair. Earlier in the lesson Desperate Dan made some reference to him making Sarah hot. I'm not sure in what context this was, but it kinda took us all by surprise.

Anyway enough about him, on to Sophie...

There's this really pretty girl that I've seen on the bus loadsa times, brunette, fantastic body (and yes of course I've looked!) really pretty face and is a dancer :oD but anyway it turns out she is a really sweet girl. I've kinda talked to her a coupla times on the bus but not really very much cuz this guy that I see on there quite a lot and chat to knows her.

So yeah, there we are on the bus and we had one of those really deep conversations about love, life, everything. Before we knew what was going on we'd both missed our stops! (Ahem I deliberately missed mine I dunno about her...) On the way back it came to my stop first and I decided that maybe I'd just wait a little longer seeings as we were getting on so well and it was a lovely bus ride and all! So back to Swindon we both went! It was amazing, I don't remember the last time I spoke to someone for that amount of time, let alone sum1 I barely knew! We just got on really really well. The funniest thing of all is that we didn't exchange numbers or anything so I have no way of contacting her, it's just pot luck if I see her again on a tuesday! Was talking to Kel n remembered that a similar thing happened on 40 days and 40 nights lol. Is all good, loving life right now.

That's it.

2006-03-06T23:51:00.000Z

Just had the best bath EVER! And now I'm going to bed. Sorry everyone but I have taken off the pic of Jess. Apparently I wasn't supposed to share it. She has a point I guess, ok cool.

That's it.

2006-03-06T21:25:00.000Z

Wow, had a plan for today and actually did it!

Spoke to Nao online and we were actually getting on really well! She says she wants her stuff back, so maybe that's why she's being nice..! Anyways I guess I don't really have any right to keep it, she wants her lava lamp that hasn't had a bulb in it for about 2 years and the chest of drawers next to my bed that is technically hers. See now, I use it as my bedside table so it's got my fone, remotes and rear-left surround sound speaker on it. Now if I give that back it's just plain annoying. I know that I should give it back, but I need to find a replacement first! Been speaking to Jess all day, I called her at around 3.30pm and woke her up!!

Had Ricky Ricardo complaining to me about 'the nazi' on email again. It's funny, Danny-Boy could quite easily be the modern face of the British Nazi Party or whatever they call themselves. Anyways gotta jet, music advice for the day; go listen to 'Standing on My Own Again' by Graham Coxon. Ignore the fact that he's called Graham and you're more likely to enjoy the track!!

Ok cool,

That's it.

2006-03-06T09:29:00.000Z

What a lovely thing my darling Jessica did last night, she decided to call me when she got in at about 4am, to tell me she was drunk! Then she said that she'd have to call me back cuz she was going to be sick! Perhaps she's not an alchie after all, I don't think they puke cuz of it. Oh well anyways I'm tired.

More later.

2006-03-05T22:44:00.000Z

Just spoke to Nao on the fone. This really is it. I have done something that I never ever wanted to or thought I would do; I made her hate me. I destroyed her heart. I deserve everything I get, I cheated on her, made her feel worthless and made her feel stupid.

I desperately want to fix things and not just for closure. Naomi is genuinely a very lovely, cute and sweet girl and I know that she only lashes out when she's hurting.

We aren't going to speak again unless we can help it, this is what she wants and it's the least I can do. I hope she finds peace, joy, happiness and someone who treats her the way she deserves to be treated.

2006-03-05T17:49:00.000Z

I just read Nao's blog, it's quite curious that since she's started dating Paul that she never once uses his name. It's always 'my boyfriend'. I wonder if she means anything by it (bearing in mind she know I read her blog) hmmm. I mean, I think I only ever described Nao as my ex-girlfriend once to let you guys know who I'm talking about. Or maybe she cannot believe that she has a new boyfriend and has to keep reminding herself! Well nonetheless I'm glad she's happy, it does however seem a little too deliberate that she doesn't mention me anymore. I do know that she may not mention me in her blog because she also knows that lots of her friends read it and she doesn't want an misconceptions. Fair enough I think.

I do however find it slightly frustrating that Nao doesn't seem to appreciate my integrity in not saying things that simply do not need to be said.

That's it.

2006-03-05T16:29:00.000Z

Just got home from London Baby!
Wow. What can I tell you?

I left home at about 6pm and drove to Bath, picked up Cliff and drove to Tom's. Tom has got this HUGE place near Knightsbridge in London (well his folks have anyway and they were away). When we got there (after getting lost 5 or 6 times), Tom had ordered chinese for everyone and there was so much food there were loads of us and about 5 people that I knew! So yeah, we were having chinese, listening to music and then the drinking games began. I have no idea what I was drinking, but the more I drank the better it tasted! Dosed myself up on some pro plus and red bull (but don't tell anyone I KNOW IT'S BAD FOR ME...)

Then we decided to go into town where he'd booked VIP tables at the Light Bar, then went to Red Cube and then the champagne and cocktails and dancing began! :oD It's funny how I seem to dance much better when I'm drunk... Ahem... I called Jessica at some point, not exactly sure when, would have been fun if she'd been there, but anyways yeh, went back inside and we did shooters of something, couldn't tell you what! Then we went to Fabric Home - best club in London I've been in and then to Ministry of Sound (which I also got in free!) lots of drinking, lots of dancing, lots of ladies was like the best night EVER! Then we (and some others) got taxis back to his place at about 8am where he cracked open a bottle of Louis XIII Cognac and some cuban cigars, living the high life 'eh? His house is the most amazing I've ever been in, admittedly Greg's apartment was cooler, but this place was a different league! Fell asleep at some point! Some bits have all merged into each other. Ahem :0D

That's it.

2006-03-04T14:01:00.000Z

Ooh also I have been think about Naomi far too much BUT have come to an exciting and vaild conclusion. I have been missing Naomi and she has possibly been missing me. Unfortunately we both at different times have confused this feeling of missing someone with 'wanting them back' which I am sure is not what we want. It's perfectly natural to miss someone, healthy even. I must confess that I was concerned that I wanted Nao back, not because of anything to do with her, more that I thought I'd dealt with my issues (and I have!) and then these feelings were coming back. I do miss lots of things about Nao, of course I do. But that doesn't mean I want her back and I'm guessing maybe she's in a similar position, although she is replacing things she misses about me with her new boyfriend perhaps. Can't speak for her obviously, but that's what I'm guessing.

SO yeah, it really is all good. Thanks everyone for your concern, I really appreciate it but consider these particular issues dealt with once and for all!

"What the world needs is more geniuses with humility,
there are so few of us left." - Oscar Levant

Heard a song today;

Let's Get Ready To Rhumble - PJ & Duncan

"Lets get reeaadyyy to rhumble!"

Lets get ready ready Lets get ready ready

Lets get ready to Rhumble

Watch us wreck the mic

Watch us wreck the mic..............Psyche

Lets get ready ready Lets get ready ready

Lets get Lets get Lets get ready ready

Lets get ready ready Lets get ready ready

Lets get ready to Rhumble

Straight up provin' We can get you groovin'

This tracks boomin' it ain't no hype

Watch us wreck the mic

watch us wreck the mic.............Psyche

CHORUS

Lets get ready to rhumble (Lets get ready to rhumble)

Get ready get steady and Rhumble (Everybody Rhumble)

Lets get ready to rhumble (Lets get ready to rhumble)

Get ready get steady and Rhumble (Everybody rhumble)

Sit back Rap attack don't take no flack

rhymin time to the rhythm of the track

I'm Ant I'm Declan a Duo a Twosome

So many lyrics we're frightened to use 'em

So many lyrics we keep 'em in stores

We've even got them coming out of our pores

Your father your mother your sister your brother

everyone's got to be an AKA Lov-er

Give us the motivation we can cause a sensation

Give us the aspiration we can cause a sensation

Give us the girls top speed

Give us the girls stampede

Stylin' Smilin' Everybody buck wilin'

CHORUS

Partners in crime we'll never do time

A sentence for us has to end in a rhyme((wiggidy wiggidy))

Raw... and pure like sushi

Don't try to do me use me Or even try to sue me

We lay down the law We're quick on the draw

We played it we made it the rest don't score

No jokes no messin' We teach you a lesson

A state of confusion to keep you all guessin'

CHORUS

Freakin' it sweatin' it bustin' the mic

Slammin' it jammin' it do what you like

Lets get ready ready Lets get ready ready Lets get Lets get

Lets get ready ready Lets get ready ready Lets get ready ready

Lets get ready to rhumble

Watch us wreck the mic' Watch us wreck the mic

Watch us wreck the mic.............Psyche

CHORUS

That's it.

2006-03-04T13:35:00.000Z

Went back to sleep n Jess jus woke me up to let me know she was going out. Or something. Uh... Ok.

Just read this about the Da Vinci code was quite interesting. Things are looking very excellent re: me going to Nottingham. Exeter accepted me by the way, which is cool! (Seeings as they turned me down, you believe that!?) Ok so I'm not going there, never have been and wouldn't really want to BUT. They were my backup and I can't be having my backup turning me down!

Let's be honest and real about some things right now shall we? I have friends, good friends and I don't need some chick to make me happy now do I. Ok, lots of chicks could bring lots of happiness but that aside... Life is good. I have my health, I'm getting fit and I'm getting all my college work done. The weather is amazing with bright sunshine outside and me n lil Snoop just went for a run. Met a girl called Sophie who lives down the road from me, she was walking her pup in the same field. She seems swell, I can't believe I haven't met her before! Then again I don't really hang out in my village.

Yeah so tonight's gonna be fantastico, we're all staying at Tom's place near Knightsbridge, I think his folks are away or something so that'll be fine n dandy. I think my biggest problem tonight will be wether to hang out with Charlie or Dom Perignon (I think we all know who I'll choose).

LMAO a buncha reebok chavs just strolled past my window! Three kiddys with almost identical clothes on!

Anyways I need a bath and to get some stuff ready...

That's it.

2006-03-04T08:17:00.000Z

Jess did call after work last night, so that was cool. We chatted for a bit 'til she started to bore me. Got an email from Shan, she's sweet but I just don't know. Plus she has huge issues with my friendship with Jess.
Anyways I'm shleepy, duno y am even awake. I think I'll jus go back to bed!

That's it.

2006-03-03T23:10:00.000Z

Feeling snoozy, not spoken to Jess all day, feels really weird. 1st day that we haven't spoken in months. Maybe she'll call me after she finishes work.
Oh well, that's it for today. Big night out tomorrow!!! Yay!

Women update;

Not spoken to Nao
Not spoken to Jess
Given up on Emma
Not spoken to Claire
Not talking to Trish
Not talking to Shan
Not going to the Ganges 500, I hear there's weird markings there.
Think I'll try n drop Kellie off the scope for a while.

Having said that, you may notice a comment from Naomi regarding Emma, but it appears that she has her wires crossed and is thinking of 'rat girl' as opposed to the belly-button chickadee. Anyways am audi.

That's it.

2006-03-03T17:33:00.000Z

Politics went well today, did my presentation and handed in one of my late pieces of work. Not sure how well I did. Means I'm totally up to date in Politics AND Sociology and THAT feels fantastic let me tell you! My mind is being foolish with me at the moment. Kinda annoying to be honest. Or is is my heart? Who knows? I feel like Karl Kennedy! Nonetheless, nothing I can do. Having said that I just finished watching an amazing movie; Hotel Rwanda kinda puts things into perspective I think.

Talking of Karlo, neighbours just started! Must go watch it...

That's it.

2006-03-03T17:26:00.000Z

Heard a song today;

"You Were Mine"

I Can't Find A Reason To Let Go

Even Though You've Found A New Love

And He's What Your Dreams Are Made Of

I Can Find A Reason To Hang On

What Went Wrong Can Be Forgiven

Without You, It Ain't Worth Livin' Alone

Sometimes I Wake Up Crying At Night

And Sometimes I Scream Out Your Name

What Right Does He Have To Take You Away

When For So Long, You Were Mine

I Took Out All The Pictures Of Our Wedding Day

It Was A Time Of Love And Laughter

Happy Ever After

But Even Those Old Pictures Have Begun To Fade

Please Tell Me He's Not Real

And That You're Really Coming Home To Stay

Sometimes I Wake Up Crying At Night

And Sometimes I Scream Out Your Name

What Right Does He Have To Take Your Heart Away

When For So Long, You Were Mine

I Can Give You A Good Reason

To Show You Love's Not Blind

She's Only One, And You Know She Adores You

So How Can I Tell Her You've Changed Your Mind

Sometimes I Wake Up Crying At Night
And Sometimes I Scream Out Your Name
What Right Does He Have To Take Your Heart Away
When For So Long, You Were Mine

I Remember When You Were Mine

I miss my Jim u no...

2006-03-02T16:57:00.000Z

Can't believe it hurts that Nao cheated on me. I always thought she was 'better' than me. Hmm. Dunno. I think that's what I'm feeling. I'm not sure.
Heard a song today;

Fragile - Delta Goodrem

Six thoughts at once I can't focus on one

Seven days a week but my life has just begun

So caught in emotion and I'm overcome

As I'm falling down I come undone

Sometimes I feel like I'm alone

Sometimes I feel like I'm not that strong

Sometimes I feel so frail so small

Sometimes I feel vulnerable

Sometimes I feel a little fragile

A little fragile

In six thousand years what will this mean

Words from the heart or a melody

So caught in emotion and I'm overcome

As I'm falling down I come undone

Sometimes I feel like I'm alone

Sometimes I feel like I'm not that strong

Sometimes I feel nothing at all

Sometimes I feel vulnerable

Sometimes I feel a little fragile

A little fragile

If people can see right through my eyes

Like an open door that I can't disguise

I won't be afraid from the tears I cry

I'll not run I'll not hide this is how I feel inside

A little fragile

Sometimes I feel like I'm alone

Sometimes I feel like I'm not that strong

Sometimes I feel so frail so small

Sometimes I feel vulnerable

Sometimes I feel a little fragile

That's it.

2006-03-02T16:49:00.000Z

Update on the ladies front;

Nao is talking to me. Kinda.
Shan is being harsh to me so I'm done with her.
Me n Jess are buddies again.
Trish pisses me off.
Still can't get hold of Emma although I'm not sure if I want to!
Not tried calling Kellie again, I think I'll wait.
Decided Indy Avenue is too complicated a journey.
Spoke to Claire again today.

I Miss Hugs...

2006-03-02T15:53:00.000Z

Did my presentation in sociology today, went really well. That's 2 more level 3s in the can. Handed in Dave's essay ON TIME! Must be a record or something! Nao appears to NOT be quitting college as she had previously stated. It's funny how she still calls me when she wants something! (She emailled me her essay as she couldn't make it into college) Ah well, I'll help people out if I can, it's in my nature.

Oh and Rich, I can't believe you retracted your statement YOU PUSSY! Oh and it's PREVIOUS not PERVIOUS although I hear everything is perv-related with you, Senor Shirt-lifter...
Anyway that's it.

2006-03-01T22:14:00.000Z

'Danny the Nazi'

(With his Uncle Adolf)

Ok That really is it. I have an essay to write...

2006-03-01T22:08:00.000Z

"You must remember this;
A kiss is just a kiss,
As time goes by..."

'Play it again Sam...' (Gotta love Casablanca)

Talking of Sam, emailled her today. Turns out she's not single. But it's ok though cuz she's sorry!!!

That's it.

2006-03-01T22:03:00.000Z

Wow, just spoke to Nao online and it turns out that she actually DID cheat on me with Paul. Well, if you can call 1 snog cheating. Apparently I drove her to it and in all fairness it is the least I deserve! So I guess I can live with that. To be honest, I'm completely fine about it, but if I's known sooner it'd have pissed me off cuz I'd have had no right to complain about it. Hang on a minute. I just thought. When Nao kissed Paul she didn't know that I'd been fooling around with sum1 behind her back. Hmmm. Well, I guess I still don't have any right to complain now really do I! Just cuz she didn't know about it didn't mean it wasn't happening! I guess it's more of an inconvenience than anything!

Ok that's it.

2006-03-01T14:48:00.000Z

The Transcript...

Luke - Morning
Paul - morning
Paul - intresting blog
Luke - why thank you
Paul - im an everyday vistior
Luke - congratulations
Luke - always nice to meet a fan
Paul - always nice to meet the author
Luke - do you have any favourite parts?
Paul - mmmm, i like the car....
Luke - so do I, I recenty purchased it for my Uncle
Paul - its a step up
Luke - certainly is
Paul - my mum doesnt live in london
Paul - maybe u could make the correction
Paul - ???
Luke - apologies, that part was from Naomi
Luke - I would be more than happy to
Luke - so where did you drive to then?
Paul - aunts
Luke - still London?
Paul - she lives in islington
Paul - yeah
Luke - ok then I apologise most profusely for the oversight
Luke - I also understand that you were not actually 'dating' hayley
Paul - its H-a-l-i-e
Paul - ooops
Paul - HAILIE
Luke - again, apologies
Paul - welll
Paul - yes
Paul - and no
Paul - shes not the one guy kinda girkl
Paul - girl
Paul - she is now thou
Luke - how so?
Paul - she is getting on well, with a guy from wales, he is nice for her
Luke - glad to hear it
Luke - refresh the page and you will notice the inaccuracies have been remedied
Paul - i cant see it
Luke - Not that I'm complaining about this lovely chat we're having, but I'm assuming you didn't just stumble upon my email address. Therefore I can only guess that you have some kind of agenda which I would appreciate it if you would reveal it to me.
Paul - lol
Paul - no
Paul - maybe u do?
Luke - maybe I do what?
Paul - agenda
Paul - i dont talk about u,
Paul - but u do
Paul - about me
Luke - I write about what's going on in my life.
Luke - I was concerned that I was disliking you irrationally as you appear to, me.
Paul - and how am i in that
Luke - Well if you had read my blog daily as you previously mentioned you would realise.
Paul - ok, well i do read regulay looks like ur doing well in life so. good for u. uni comming up , nice car, .. all these women,,, i get confused with who u really want??? its cold her, cant type
Luke - the car's not mine. Like I said, I bought it for my uncle
Paul - ohhh
Paul - my mistake
Luke - lol
Paul - would be good 4 u thou
Luke - I WISH it was mine!!!!
Luke - be good for me?
Luke - how so
Paul - mmmm the car suits u
Luke - I don't understand what you are insinuating
Paul - nothing, the ford focus i unsluted just didnt seem right
Luke - insulted?
Paul - yeah
Paul - soz
Paul - colsd
Luke - ok
Paul - cold here
Luke - Paul.
Luke - I really don't understand why you apparently hate me
Luke - Nao says that you do
Paul - i dont
Luke - she says you 'can't stand me'
Paul - i DONT talk about u
Paul - past was
Paul - past
Paul - thats why i dont talk about emma, hailie
Paul - she talks about u thou
Luke - I know it's none of my business but are things cool between u2?
Luke - cuz she seemed REALLY upset tonight
Paul - yeah she was
Paul - she gets upset, when u call her all the time
Paul - why is that/
Paul - ?
Luke - I don't
Paul - i dont wanna say not to ring her, or to ring her, i dont know why first
Paul - u do
Luke - not 'all the time'
Paul - u do
Luke - I rarely call her
Paul - u do
Paul - im with her
Paul - and EVERY TIME
Luke - when?
Paul - u call or text
Paul - EVERY TIME
Paul - so why is that?
Luke - when was the last time I saw her?
Paul - i have no idea, maybe you could tell me
Luke - oh wait, you've read my blog
Luke - nevermind
Paul - cuz on ur blogg,
Paul - wasnt long ago
Paul - also she wants you back?
Luke - that's what she implied
Paul - and how would that be, .... wasnt clear on ur blogg (not bitching its good)
Luke - I was kinda surprised to be honest
Luke - how? She was typing song lyrics to me n stuff
Paul - that's cute
Luke - to be honest I'm not overly comfortable discussing my ex with her current boyfriend
Luke - ESPECIALLY when she says she's ********
Luke - and he doesn't appear to know anything about it
Paul - lol
Luke - lol?
Luke - how is that funny?
Paul - i know more than u think
Luke - ok...
Luke - congratulations
Paul - anyway
Paul - all this crap is in the past right?
Luke - which crap would that be?
Paul - all the shit that went on, u talk about emma, dislikeing me, u two goin out, me and her
Paul - its all one bog happy family
Paul - one of the nights u was "seein emma" what u think she was doin
Paul - u think she never cheated on u
Paul - ?
Paul - we been going out 2 weeks
Paul - but seeing each other for months!!!!!!!! months and months!
Paul - while u was with her
Paul - so i fail to see, why life cant just move on
Paul - living in the past, witch u sed u dont want
Luke - I think I'm going to be sick
Paul - is stupid
Paul - then be sick
Paul - u dont want her, then leave it
Paul - its like u still love her
Luke - of course I do
Paul - in love with her?
Luke - nah
Luke - she was seeing you behind my back?
Paul - then leave it?
Paul - at the end of your relationship
Luke - that's the best news I've heard in ages
Paul - not for long
Paul - why?
Luke - I no longer feel bad about anything I did
Paul - kewl
Luke - :oD
Paul - dont
Paul - why botther
Luke - thanx mate!
Paul - its in the past
Luke - great news
Paul - u cheated she cheated
Luke - wait, I must call nao and thank her
Paul - mp
Paul - no
Paul - thats not moving on
Paul - that says to me
Paul - u still wanna talk to her
Luke - of course I do
Paul - for what reason?
Paul - what could you possibly have to talk about?
Luke - so why are you going out with her?
Luke - if you're leaving
Luke - kinda harsh wouldn't you say?
Paul - its our suitiion is with us not u
Paul - she is goin to uni
Paul - and im goin to brasil
Paul - how u know that
Paul - im goin there?
Luke - voce le portugueses e fala-os? [do you read Portuguese as well as speak it?]
Paul - falar ingles, se faz-favor [speak English please]
Paul - obrigado [Thank you]
Paul - so how u know im goin to brasil?
Luke - Eu sei tudo Paul. Naomi e eu falamos regularmente e e-me dita coisas na confianca que eu nao falarei sobre. [I know everything Paul. Naomi and I speak regularly and she has said thing in confidence that I will not discuss.]
Paul - falar ingles [speak English]
Paul - why u speak regulay
Paul - ur portugese is wrong ,, but good effort
Luke - Pesaroso meu portugues nao e muito bom, Eu sou certo que seu e muito mais melhor... [Sorry my Portuguese is not very good, I'm sure yours is much better...]
Luke - Il mio italiano e molto piu meglio [My Italian is much better]
Paul - nao, eu falar brasillio [no, i speak Brazillian]
Paul - eu nao falar portuguese [i don't speak portuguese]
Luke - fair enough
Paul - speak english
Paul - so ...
Luke - me n Nao have spoken cuz we're friends
Luke - or have been kinda friends
Luke - on and off
Paul - then be nice to her
Luke - and when we HAVE been friends she's told me many things
Paul - like......
Luke - as I said earlier she has told me things in confidence that I'm not going to go talking about
Luke - I can be VERY harsh and VERY personal to both of you but that wouldn't get us anywhere now would it??
Paul - true
Luke - I would like nothing more than to move on, but neither I nor Naomi want to completely stop taking to each other
Luke - in fact, I just remembered that I have the whole 'want you back' conversation saved on my computer if you'd like to see it
Paul - indeed
Luke - are you serious?
Luke - you bastard
Paul - if u have it send it
Luke - oh I have it
Luke - but ur completely comfortable with not asking Nao if she minds you reading it?
Paul - if u have it, ill leave everything u and her ...
Luke - Paul, I have it but I'm not going to send it to you
Paul - and why not
Luke - I have more class than that
Paul - try ring her, she is on the phone to me,
Paul - i told her u have that convo
Paul - she laffed
Luke - anyway I don't want you to leave her
Luke - apparently you make her happy
Paul - and sed u wish u had it
Luke - and believe it or not that's what I want
Luke - she was calling me and texting me non-stop
Luke - on 20th feb
Paul - ..... that proves nothing
Luke - I don't have to prove anything
Luke - get her to call me
Luke - if she says I can send it, I'll send it
Paul - why you need her pormission
Paul - ok she will
Paul - ring ring???
Nao calls, says "send it, whatever he wants just send it, I don't care."
See now, I know Nao quite well and it sounded like she'd just been woken up or was generally upset. I tell her I'm not going to send it, I'm going to say I lost it cuz I don't want to make things difficult for her. She hangs up...
Paul - talk and type
Luke - sorry can't find it
Paul - if u have it
Luke - lost it
Luke - dunno how that could happen
Luke - *shrugs*
Paul - it will be in my documents, recived files . then her addy
Paul - they dont delete them self
Luke - this 1 must have
Luke - sorry
Luke - dunno what to tell you
Paul - NOTHING
Paul - u dont have shit mate.
Luke - yeh I know
Luke - my bad
Luke - made it all up
Luke - had you worried tho
Luke - lol
Luke - surprises all around 'eh?
Paul - actulry no, if she wants u back
Paul - let her do it
Luke - no
Luke - she wants u mate
Paul - thought u didn
Paul - thought she didnt
Luke - she does
Luke - you make her happy
Paul - we will see
Luke - she was all excited about Sunday
Paul - hwo u know
Luke - lucky guess I spose
Luke - I dunno
Luke - Look Paul, here's how it is...
Luke - I'm not going to get in the way of your relationship with Nao in any way. I care about her. Don't fight against our history it's pointless. 3.5 whatever years doesn't just disappear. We have a past yes, but that's what it is. I want to be her friend, but if that's making things difficult for the 2 of you I'll back off. My priority in all of this mess is Naomi's happiness.
Luke - You make her happy, I fucked it up when it was my turn. It's your turn now, don't mess it up or seriously I'll fuck YOU up.
Paul - it doesnt get in the way foi ne
Paul - for mne
Paul - me
Luke - ok then I'm glad we're cool
Luke - I can't believe you made me do the 'if you ever hurt her' speech
Luke - it's far too late at night for that shit
Paul - im leaving in nov, that cant count she knows about that
Luke - yeh, she knows so that's kinda her own fault!
Luke - just treat her how I should have yeah?
Luke - oh and make sure she actually DOES quit smoking!!
Paul - what is loco
Luke - Anyways mate, I'm glad we had this chat and if I actually believed that Nao had cheated on me with you I'd kick your fucking ass.
Luke - Loco used to be my nickname when I was on cruiseships
Luke - sounds like Luke, means crazy so u no...
Paul - welll done
Paul - tudo bem [all good]
Luke - si
Luke - anyways I bid u bueno sera [good evening]
Paul - fica com Feus [it is with Feus]
Paul - Deus [God]
Luke - indeed it is
Luke - Ciao [Bye]
Paul - tachu [bye]

2006-03-01T13:43:00.000Z

After reading Nao's blog about how Sunshine makes [her] smile I felt intense relief cuz our last conversation was not exactly the most cheerful. I'm still debating as to whether I should throw the transcript of my 2am conversation with the infamous Paul out into the public sector. I'm thinking yes I will, but at the same time I'm at a loss as to exactly how I should do it. Maybe I should call a press conference!!

2006-03-01T00:41:00.000Z

NEWSFLASH!!

Well hardly news but I just spoke to Nao and she hates me. She says she's dropping out of college so that she doesn't have to see me anymore. I'm trying to figure out what's going on but she won't tell me. Am starting to get kinda worried to be honest, I thought she was deliriously happy.

2006-03-01T00:04:00.000Z

Ok NOW I'm stressed.

I got a text from a number that wasn't on my fone saying;

"U LYING BASTARD LUKE!! how the fuck could you lie to me!!! ring my mobile if you want to fucking talk to me!!!"

See now it's obviously from some chick but who? So I call the number and it's Shanna. Jess has just called her asking her if what I told her about this guy Brad(ley) is true. Shanna tells me that she told Jess everything she had told me. I call Jess to see if she's ok, Jess says that Shanna said that everything I had told her wasn't true and that I was stirring. Jess has no reason to lie so I call Shanna back. At this point I'm feeling incredibly confused. I call Shanna back and tell her what Jess said. I suggest that the only way to sort this out is for the three of us to do a conference call and get it sorted out. Shanna gets very stressed by this saying that she doesn't want to speak to Jess with 'her child awake' and in the room and just generally gets more stressed, which I find very suspicious. A certain part of MacBeth sprang to mind; "Methinks the lady doth protest too much..!" Oh and then she said that if I wanted her to talk to Jess to get her to call her. So why wouldn't she talk to her with me on the fone? The only reason I can possibly think of is that it simply isn't true.

It all became very clear that Shanna probably isn't that good friends with Brad(ley) and that it was her that was making all this shit up and was her that was doing the stirring! I don't get it.

Oh and now I've just had a text from Shanna say that she's 'just let rip on Jess [and to] prepare for the heart wrenching phone call.' Strangely enough Jess does call and says she just had a text from Shanna saying everything that I said she'd said. Jess texts Brad(ley) and won't tell me what he said but she says that she doesn't want to talk to any of us anymore.

I don't understand what I've done wrong. All I did was try to do the right thing by telling her what was being said about her.

I'll tell you about Brad(ley) some other time if I can be arsed and why I write his name like that!

So in conclusion, my current status with women is this;

Jess now hates me.
I want nothing to do with Shanna.
Naomi has fallen off the map.
I don't know how to get hold of Emma.
Trish doesn't want to talk to me.
I can't contact Kellie for like 3 months.

Ok that's it.

2006-02-28T22:31:00.000Z

I'm so not a slut.
Am I?
Just spoke to Trish on msn and she seems to think that I am. I said to her that 'I'm gonna have to face it, I'm addicted to love...' but that flew over her head. Ahem.
Heard a song today;

We Might As Well Be Strangers - Keane

I don't know your face no more

Or feel your touch that I adore

I don't know your face no more

It's just a place I'm looking for

We might as well be strangers in another town

We might as well be living in a different world

We might as well

I don't know your thoughts these days

We're strangers in an empty space

I don't understand your heart

It's easier to be apart

We might as well be strangers in another town

We might as well be living in a another time

We might as well

We might as well be strangers

Be strangers

For all I know of you now

For all I know

2006-02-28T22:22:00.000Z

Just finished watching a movie; Raise Your Voice I really enjoyed it. It kinda cheered me up but at the same time made me realise that I miss dating a cutie! Yeh ok Hilary Duff is in this movie but she is pretty n cutsie and has the most amazing green eyes :oD
Yeh I was watching this n it made me remember what I'm missing. I really am not quite sure how to describe it but I'll give it a try; (I'm gonna sound foolish but 'quite frankly my dear I don't give a damn...')
Ok. It's like u know when u have a girl that's quite short n can bury her head in ur chest when she's gone all shy. The sleeves thing, I dunno what it is or really how to describe it but sleeve that are a little too long or something. I don't know. I know what I mean n I just miss that stuff. Just harmless, innocent messing around. Having fun. Two people that enjoy each others company. Nothing complicated. Am I making sense?

Find me a cutie!!!

Ok that's it.

2006-02-28T15:16:00.000Z

Two men walk into a bar...
You would have thought one of them would have seen it!

Not snowing anymore :o(

2006-02-28T13:57:00.000Z

Jess knows Emma but won't let me get hold of her! How rude is that..?
It's snowing a blizzard outside right now...

Law was fun! I think Sarah made Danny-boy cry!!!

2006-02-27T21:19:00.000Z

Went into college for a tutorial thing was actually VERY useful.
Still no sign of Nao, I guess Sunday went well with Paul! Called her earlier, she was working. Beth recognised my voice! I've met her like 1 time, was impressed lol.

Spoke to Shanna. Kinda. I guess she's still pissed at me.

2006-02-26T20:03:00.000Z

Just remembered...

Nao thinks I'm a slut!!!

Don't hate the playa, hate the game.

Nao - "I'm with Paul cuz he treats me well..."
Luke - "I get treated well by different women all the time!"
Nao - "You're a slut Luke..."
Luke - "No darling, women are sluts. Men are studs."

2006-02-26T15:23:00.000Z

On Thursday night I met a girl with the cutest belly-button I've ever seen; was like a quasi-innie-outie! Her name's Emma, how do I get hold of her??? Any suggestions???

2006-02-25T15:13:00.000Z

Just got back from buying a Porsche...

Not too shabby 'eh?

Had to leave at like 7.30 this morning to drive down to Bournemouth. Was gud tho.

Well, it gets from a to b... :op

Anyways, was all I did yesterday!

Things are still weird with Jess which is a shame.

Shanna's not even talking to me!

So I guess my Women complications have now become very simple!

Shit happens 'eh? Life is good...

2006-02-24T16:54:00.000Z

Just got home from some crazy timez...

Drove down to Exeter for my interview, left Sociology early, decided to go see Jess as I was in the area. Went to her house, was there for about half an hour her eye didn't look anything like as bad as she made out! Would have met up with her later but she said she was working.

Went to my interview, when I got there they informed me that it had been postponed to 9am this morning. They had emailed me yesterday to let me know but I'd not checked my email. I text Jess and let her know but get no reply (no cred) so I give her a call, she wasn't working 'til 6 so I figured I could give her a lift or something. She's @ Jades and says that she's not going to work now but I can give Jade a lift if I want, so I'm like sure ok. I have no plans seeings as my interview is in the morning. Jess is like 'come over at 5.45' but I hear Jade in the background saying why don't I just come over now, so then Jess says come over now. So anyway like I said, I had no plans so over I went. I get there and am not sure which house is hers so I'm on the fone looking around and see sum1 looking through the window at me, on the fone, Jess sez that Jade can see me so I give them a cheeky grin! Turns out that's not Jade's house! I go into Jade's and the fone rings, it's her Mum who lives just up the road wondering who I am!!!

Yeah so I stay at Jade's for like 20mins chatting to her, Jess and her friend Rachel. While am there Jess speaks to her friend Charlie and arranges to go to a cruise in Exeter (blatantly to meet this dude Lee) Anyway then we take Jade to work and decide to go to the pub for a drink. While we're there a group of hotties stroll in; turns out they're all Jess n Rachel's mates from school out for sum1s brithday! So yeh, there we are sitting, attempting to have a conversation while Rachel n Jess are just saying how much they want to go out with them, which of course is tons of fun for me!!! But yeah so they go over n say hi, they ask who I am, Jess says 'some guy' (which I have to admit offended me a bit until I remembered that I'm always describing girls as 'some chick u no how it is' so I have to assume it's the same kinda thing.) Anyway we chat4a bit n then I take them back to Jess' cuz they need 2 get ready to go out. We get back to hers n am like what's goin on then n Jess is like 'we're going out' (meaning her n Rachel) so am like 'oh ok then' and off I go, down to the beach! Seeings as I have no plans I figure why not go down to the beach n read, snooze, whatever. I say 2 Jess to gimme a call later if she wants 2 do something wen she gets back but that am not gonna hold my breath!!

Yeah so like 9.30 arrives n am getting kinda cold so I figure why not go out! I mean, rather than doing nothing in the car on my own why not go have myself some fun! Out I go to some place called Remedy and ask the doorstaff what time places open n stuff n they looked quite busy so I went in there had myself some minging VKs with free shots, chatted to the bar-chick n got more free shots lol.

Went to Farenheit which is actually a v cool club, kinda small but gud. Got myself a Jack n Coke, went n sat upstairs. About 20 mins after I got there this group of fine looking ladies show up and guess who they were?? Jess' mates :oD Pretty funny 'eh? Anyways, started talking to them had a dance n stuff. I called Jess at like 12ish to see what was goin on cuz I knew she was gonna be back by 11 cuz thats wen Jade was finishing work. She said she was staying at sum1s (which I assume is gonna be Lee but she denys even saying it cuz she went home but anyway...) So I'm thinkin u no, she gonna be having herself some fun so y didn't I?

Pulled like 6 hotties n took 1 back to my car.

Next morning took the chick home, had a shower at hers n went for my interview which went really really well. Was in front of a panel of 3 and was quite a grilling!! Was cool tho, went well (if you can ever really tell!) Then drove back, totally missing politics which isn't good but figured why not go see Nao, so I call her up n she says is cool so over I go.

The revelation comes forth that she's now going out with Paul! Which is funny seeings as she didn't want a boyfriend when she went to uni, but instead she chooses a guy that's leaving the country! Genius!

I've been thinking about why I dislike Paul, or am surprised that Nao likes him so much and have reached some conclusions;

I first started to dislike him when I was still going out with Nao and he came over to hers, was drunk or got drunk. Was gonna drive home so sum1 gave me his keys. He took them off me and drove off. A guy called Olly called the police saying that he was drunk and gave them his number plate, Nao (pretty sure it was Nao) gave them (via Olly) his address and they sent a car over. See now, I had no problem with him at this point so I figured rather than let him get into shit I called him and gave him a heads-up. His response to this was to drive (drunk) all the way to London to his Aunts! So from that, any respect I once had for the guy (and I really had no problem with him) was gone.
This chick Emma aka 'The Mistake' aka 'Rat-Girl' didn't want him, despite his constant displays of affection and declarations of love for her. (Yes this was the chick that I stupidly cheated on Nao with, but it was only cuz she/it was so so easy (you're right no excuse and no I wouldn't do it again given the chance.)) But anyway, even she didn't want him!
He had a crush bordering on obssession with Nao's sister Hayley (ok she's hott, I can't deny that and never have!) he figured maybe he wasn't gonna get her so settle for Nao! I hope not.
I told 1 of the 'minging Froomies' that Nao was going out with Paul and even she didn't believe it!!
Told Barn that Nao was going out with Paul and he laughed for like 10 mins.

Oh I dunno, I really really hope this doesn't make me sound like the jealous ex, cuz I'm really not. I don't want Nao back ESPECIALLY after her having been with Paul. Sends a shiver down my spine and makes my skin crawl!!!

So yeah anyway I'm over at Nao's and I realise that the thing that I think annoys me most about her is that she thinks it's totally cool to talk about her shagging guys n saying things to me but if I say anything back she gets all stressed and offended! For example; Nao looked me in the eye and said she didn't find me attractive (kinda harsh right?) So in retalliation I said that every one of the girls I'd shagged since her have been much better looking than her! (Again harsh.) But she got all stressed, upset and couldn't take it!!! I don't get it, like 2 days ago she was pretty much saying that she wanted me back. Then it turns out that she said she only did that because Paul asked her out when they were drunk, so she didn't know they were going out! Apparently he asked her out to get her to quit smoking! Or something...

I hope Nao is not just with him because she wanted him for ages and now he's interested cuz she was. Illusion is always better than reality.

The funniest thing of all is that I'm feeling really happy!!! The girl I want was with sum1 else the other night, my ex has a boyfriend and I've got a load of college work to do but I'm foolishly happy! I don't get it!

Ok that's it.

2006-02-22T17:48:00.000Z

Just got a phonecall from Exeter uni, they decided to reconsider my application and have invited me to an interview in front of a panel tomorrow. Quite excited actually, always good to have a backup 'eh??

2006-02-21T23:27:00.000Z

I must confess that Nao's blog on Sunday, February 19, 2006 had me more than a little confused; Naomi has mentioned that apparently she was in no part involved in what I can only describe as the afore-mentioned malicious call I received. This may well be the case. However, Nao mentions clearly not remembering anything past 2am whilst the call was made at 1.45am therefore by her own admission was present and alert whilst said call was occurring. Also if one looks carefully there are certain glaring parallels between this post and some of mine. (Mentions of dress-code would be one prominent example.)

2006-02-21T23:07:00.000Z

I'm confused.
I think Naomi wants me back.
My main concern is that as soon as I show any kind of reciprocal interest she will as she has many times lose interest and I would expect to be cast aside in favour of her friends who would strongly disapprove as they do of our slight 'friendship'.
I can't be bothered with games, I care for Nao, I've never disputed that. I just don't believe it is the best thing for either of us.
I also gave her a tincy 'test' yesterday whereby I suggested that if she wanted to talk things through after having treated me so discourteously she should come to my home and discuss it face to face, something she has not done since we broke up. She mentioned that she had to go to work and we haven't spoken since. If she was really that serious she could have come over after work or today or something! But no, I haven't heard a thing. I can only assume that my test was a success and she was not really interested!

Had law today, it went ok. Am stuck in a moral dilema, not sure what to do.

That's all folks...

2006-02-20T23:46:00.000Z

What happened to this day?
Uh...
Ahem.

2006-02-19T22:41:00.000Z

Didn't do so much today, spoke to Jess a little bit. Finally, finally things are sorted out between us!!
Took pup out for a walk, things are cool(ish) between me and Shan n am real glad bowt that. Am currently watching Final destination 2 and quite like it actually, check my review site to see what I think.
Talked to Tracie quite a bit, I think she's ok. I enjoy talking to her, is good therapy.

That's all folks...

2006-02-18T12:35:00.000Z

I get a feeling I can't explain whenever your eyes meet mine. My heart spins in circles and I lose all space and time and now that we're standing face to face something tells me it's gonna be OK. I think that I'm ready to fall in love tonight, ready to hold my heart open wide. I can't promise it'll be forever but I'll try cuz I'm ready. No-one before you has got to me this way, I know that nothing is certain in this life but what I do know is that wherever we're heading I'm ready to go.

2006-02-18T02:29:00.000Z

I don't believe what just happened.
I am currently feeling lower than I have for quite sometime. I sent Nao a text while I was with Jess when I was feelin stressed and she said that I could talk to her anytime and that she'd be there for me. So I just sent her a text saying "If you're on ur own cud u give me a quick call pls x" I get a phone call from her number and think that finally I have someone I trust(ed) to talk to that knows and understands me. Instead someone else is on the phone saying hello? hello? is tis luke? hello? and then I hear lots of people chanting "Luke is a wanker, luke is a wanker, luke is a wanker over there..."
So here's me, feeling upset and generally very low thinking that I have someone to confide in and that's what I get. I could have cried. I cannot believe that she would do this to me. No-one has ever made me feel like this.

Someone who once was everything to me, now counts for nothing.

2006-02-17T13:36:00.000Z

I don't know what to say...

2006-02-17T02:10:00.000Z

Just got back from dropping off Jess.
Has been an interesting coupla days...
Yesterday morning we woke up at about 7.30 and uh, missed breakfast which lasted 'til 10 :oD. We checked out just after 12 and I was supposed to drive Jess home, but unfortunately I kept going the wrong way! Jess was pretty pissed when she realised that I'd kidnapped her!! But I bought her cheesy-chips n everything was cool again lol. So yeah we got back to mine and every1 was out! They'd left the place in an unbelievable mess, so I tidied up, I later found out they'd left in a hurry cuz of a train! I got to show Jess my pianistic skills and taught her to waltz and cha cha :oD
Went upstairs 4 a while, I put on sum gentle music and we just sat on my bed, I was giving her a massage so she was sat between my legs. I got bored massaging so she jus lay back, we must have sat there at least 30 mins, not saying a word. Just being together, me stroking her hair. Was really gud. Then for some reason she jumps up and runs out to have a cigarette. Leaving me not knowing what the hell is going on!! Anyway we sort things out and I get a phonecall from Nan saying do we want fish n chips. We already had that today, so we got our own chinese. When we got back every1 was there so we all said hi n stuff, my unk (Paul) had come over with the chips. We all chatted 4 a bit then my lil cuz's did a 'show' which was fun, was impressed with Katy-may's dancing actually! (the youngest, 4 I think.)
We all went to the Lamb (my local pub about 10 mins walk up the road) was pretty funny cuz Nan made Chris (my auntie) wear the reflective belt thing :oD. Got to the pub, I bought the first round. Jess had double vodka, lemonade and lime!! I had my usual (Jack n Coke). We chatted for ages, was really good. Told some funny stories like Paul's skis!! And some not so funny camping trip stories. Ahem. Chris bought the second round, we chatted some more and left the pub at about 12. We walked home, when we got there we finished the chinese and cracked open Jess' Absolute! Which between us we finished (with coke of course) am sure Jess is a bad influence, getting my family drunk!!! We watched 'Run ronnie run' which I'm sure was funnier the last time I watched it!
After a bit me n Jess went up2 bed.
Next morning me n Jess drove to Exeter as she had college. I parked by her college and went to the pub preparing to wait a coupla hours. Was sat down with a drink and a bowl of chips when I got a phone call saying she was out already and waiting by the car!
Drove to Jess' place. She gave me the grand tour and we snuggled down on the sofa watching tv and playing with her cats. Later Jade came over (Jess' bestest buddy) she's cute, pretty too. Unfortunately I use people's names too much and got them a little bit mixed up. Ahem. After a bit Jess' sis Emma, came home, said nothing and went upstairs!!
After a bit we decided to go down to the beach. We found a nice quiet spot on the sea-front and parked facing the sea and put on some quiet music and relaxed together for like 3 hours. Then all of a sudden she went weird, so I went quiet wondering what to do and she said "did I want to take her home". I said "Is that a question or a suggestion?" She said "a question" I answered "No thanks I'm fine." She replied "Ok a suggestion" I said "Ok then" and drove her home in silence. She got out of the car and asked for a kiss, which I declined and she went back into her house. I sat outside her house for a bit, not knowing how to feel or what to think. She came out again and I didn't say anything. Then after she went back in I was sending her a text to ask her to come out and talk to me when my battery died. So as I had no way of talking to her I waited 5 mins, took a deep breath and left...
I've just called Jess to let her know I got home ok.

2006-02-15T12:49:00.000Z

Last night was a ton of fun after an initial false(ish) start! I picked Jess up from the train station and she looked absolutely amazing and that's no exageration. We then drove down to Torquay (Yes that's what I said!!) Is actually a gorgeous bit of coastline known slightly ostentaciously as 'The English Riviera". As opposed to the location of Faulty Towers which I must admit did concern me!!! Anyway, we got into the town and saw our hotel up on the cliff-tops and it looked fantastic.
We checked in and went up to out room. The first thing we saw when we got into our room was the sea view. If only it had been sunnier!!! It didn't rain until about 1am but was just kinda cloudy which was a shame. There was a lovely garden just below us that led to the cliffs. We had our own balcony which was really nice (And useful seeings as Jess smokes. Ahem.) Then we decided to exchange Valentines gifts. Jess got me this huge card with the cutest message inside and a bag of stuff; a cute little 'horny devil' and some other incredibly sexy stuff that we both enjoyed later but unfortunately she kept..! Not sure how that 1 works but hey. Lol. I got her some Milk Tray (I hear the lady loves it!) Oh and a bottle of Absolute which Jess loves :oD but didn't have much of, but I'll get to that later. So yeah the present giving resulted in the first kiss of the night which I have to admit was more than slightly awkward! But neighbours had started so there was no time for that! Ahem. Yeah so we watch neighbours, then Simpsons, then Hollyoaks! I must confess that I got the tiniest bit stressed about not getting any attention and sulked on the balcony for like 10 mins 'relaxing' lol. Then I came back in, said "I want a snog!" got one and things were cool again :oD.

We laid on the bed together watching the sun setting and the lights coming on across the bay. Then twas time for dinner, so we went downstairs to the 'Regatta Restaurant' which was gorgeous, also with a sea-view. It had a dress code, so I was in my suit with a red tie (of course) and Jess looked fantastic with a halter-neck top and these hott 3quarter trousers that made her ass look amazing :oD although she was wearing this weird cardigan-type thing that I still don't understand!! When we arrived Jess was presented with a red rose. We sat down and I ordered a bottle of wine and Jess ordered a "jug-of-water-with-ice-and-lemon" (not sure why but I found it quite funny!) Jess doesn't generally like wine but liked this1, I keep saying that I have impeccable taste lol. (Well look at Jess...) The food was really good; for starter I had Seafood Boullibaisse which was really tasty, Jess had Tomato Soup. For main I had steak (what a surprise) Jess had Pork. For dessert I had Pineapple somethingorother and Jess had ice-cream.

We then got the ice bucket and took the wine up to our room. Filled our glasses with the remainder of the wine, put the Asti in the ice bucket and went downstairs to mingle. I finished my wine and so bought myself a Malibu and Coke (FOR LIKE £6!!!) I would have showed Jessica my excellent pianistic skills but some dude was playing some nonsense instead so we went for a walk. We must have spent like 20 mins trying to find a way into the swimming pool but it was locked up pretty good so we gave up and explored some more! We then came to the garden. It was raining, but we decided to go 4 a walk anyway. It was raining pretty hard lol. It felt like something from an old movie, the pouring rain, the wind, the leading lady, the sound of the ocean hitting the cliffs below us. Was amazing, we kissed. It was the most memorable and romantic kiss. All we needed was some background music and it would have been an oscar-winner!

We went back into the hotel all soaking wet and got smiles from every1 as we went past! Went to our room and whatever and fell asleep in each others arms...

2006-02-13T22:51:00.000Z

Just got back from a fun-filled evening with Nao and her friends. I drove over and met her at a pub in Chip. I'd got her a lil gift for Valentines seeings as we're friends n stuff so that's all cool.
I got there and everyone looked surprised to see me, but apparently Nao had told them I was coming so that was cool. Nao was playing pool n I was jus chatting with her sis n mates which was cool.
Was a nice relaxed evening, perhaps we're making some progress towards being friends. Oh and I got a mixed kebab on the way home of course :oD (which my auntie decided she needed to steal lots of... ahem...)

Later daters.

2006-02-12T23:15:00.000Z

Today has been fun. Uneventful but fun!
My auntie's coming over tomorrow so I finished tidying the office, watched some snowboarding, took pup for a stroll n that's really about it!
Someone told me they love me today and that made me smile a fair amount :oD
Things seem to be dropping into place for me and I'm loving it. I'm getting on amazingly with my family and life really is good!

Listening to Cannonball by Damien Rice, love this tune. Very chilled out.
Haven't watched a movie for ages! What's the world coming to! Was gonna watch Last Days but I heard it was lame!!!!

Anyways, that'll do 4 now. Can't believe I've been doing this every day for over a week now!!!!

That's it.

2006-02-11T20:53:00.000Z

I Decided What I Want...

I want the girl who fall's in love with me to look at me and see ME,
See the guy who makes her laugh when she cries,
The guy who makes her smile when she's down,
The guy she can make smile by just looking at him.

See the guy who kisses her when she's sleeping,
The guy who gets kissed whilst he's sleeping.
The guy who holds her close when she's cold.

I want to be the guy she calls when she has good news,
The guy she wants to see when she has great news.
The guy she calls when she's had a good day...just to let him know.

I want her to look and see the guy she knows everything about,
The guy she trusts with her most intimate secrets,
The guy that trusts her with his.

Let me be the guy she looks at and thinks ‘I can’t believe he's mine’,
The guy who'd look back at her and think ‘I’m the luckiest guy alive’.
The guy that she REALLY knows and still she loves.

I get to be the guy she wants to see first thing in the morning,
The guy she wants to see the last thing at night before she closes her eyes. The guy that leaves notes on her teddies for her,
The guy that buys teddies for her…just because…

I’m the guy she knows she wants to be with for the rest of her life,
The guy she wants now and forever.
The guy she'll love no matter what as long as they are together...

Is this too much for a guy to ask?
I want to be that guy…
I have tried, loved and lost but I’ll keep looking.

2006-02-11T20:25:00.000Z

Have I fallen victim to Hamlet's curse?

The pain and confusion of over-analysis and 'thinking too much'. Am I falling in love? It's been such a long time, do they feel the same way?
I don't want to get hurt but at the same time I won't let life pass me by. I don't want to wake up one morning alone with the realisation that I've been a spectator of my own existance.
It's not a big deal, I do just fine on my own. I'm just confused. I really like this person. Maybe I'm falling in love.
Am I even ready to fall in love again?
Well. I've definitely picked myself up, dusted myself off so maybe I am ready to try again.
Only thing is is that it's impossible to allow a person to really get to know you without the possiblity of getting hurt. Vunerability is a scary, scary place to be.
If only someone could tell me what I want! It'd make life a helluva lot easier!!

Anyway, in answer to my question I think I can hear a resounding "YES!" so that'll be an area for development!!!

Ok Cool, laters.

Oh Song tip for the day - Welcome to Wherever you are by Bon Jovi... Amazing track encapsulating exactly how I feel or would like to feel!

2006-02-11T10:33:00.000Z

Someone special came back into my life. I'm not sure how it's going to pan out so am trying not to get excited. I really like her and I think she likes me back (which makes a change :op).
That's all for now, when I know more, so will you...

2006-02-10T21:08:00.000Z

Hello one and all...
Things are all good! Was a little down today about my Politics presentation but that all turned out ok!
It's like I have come to the end of a tunnel and I can SEE THE LIGHT BROTHER!!! Which is good. :oD
So yeh. It's quite peculiar that I am writing this on the same day as Nao appears to be feeling the same way, but nevermind lol
I was thinking about the afore mentioned Paul today and I was thinking that I might send him a text saying something like everything's cool or something and that he's a lucky guy yadda yadda yadda cuz I know Nao really likes him n stuff but I didn't know how to word it or even if there was any point!
But yeah, life is good. Looking forward to Tuesday, Jess is quite excited too n apparently I'm in for quite a treat lol.
The hotel we've got is ridiculously posh; I have to wear a jacket and tie in the restaurant and Jess can't wear trousers!!!
That's all folks...

2006-02-09T22:45:00.000Z

FANTASTIC NEWS!!!

I'm finally completely 100% over Naomi! :oD
I know this because I went over to hers tonight to use her computer to do an assignment. Then we talked a little, then I gave her a massage (ahem topless) and then we kissed. It was all nice and stuff but there was definitely no love or anything like that. It just felt good! Then she had to go pick up her sis so we went outside to our cars and she wouldn't give me a goodbye kiss cuz she said she didn't want me, she wanted Paul! AND GUESS WHAT??? I actually, really and honestly didn't care! I laughed and meant it. I actually thought it was funny, not a nervous laugh or anything like that. I really didn't care! So if that doesn't tell me something, nothing will!!!
Is all good n jiggy baybeh :oD

Livin' the dream...

2006-02-08T15:07:00.000Z

Took lil pup for a stroll today. Jess called cuz I hung up on her last night.

Looking forward to Valentines. I had a revelation;

"Some of the best memories are huge mistakes..."

Life is made up of experiences, it's too short to stop yourself from feeling. All we have are our memories. Life is about living so live it!!!

That's all for now. Talk later.

2006-02-08T00:27:00.000Z

I wish I could stop caring about Naomi.
I'm not in love with her anymore or anything but I still care about her as a person. She just called me up wondering why I hadn't called her back after she hung up on me like I usually do. I explained that I was done with her and couldn't be bothered anymore and I really meant it. Then she got all upset and crying and stuff and I crumpled like a cheap suit like I always have. I hate it when people are upset and my natural reaction is to try and fix it. So we started talking and then she hung up again, and stupid stupid me called her back which was exactly what she wanted. She just wanted the satisfaction of cutting off my call. Twice.
<---- Genius.

2006-02-06T20:06:00.000Z

Right.
I'm in shock.
I'm not quite sure what to say.
I just had 2 phone calls.
1 phone call was with Jess.
I called her to discuss what we were doing on Valentines. I'd found this gorgeous 5* hotel with a private balcony, sea view and loadsa other stuff like indoor, outdoor pool and solarium the deal I had got included dinner and breakfast too. So I called her up to talk about it. Turns out there's more to this guy last night (who now turns out to be called Lee) I can tell she really likes the guy. She's only known him a week and says she likes him as much as she likes me. We've been talking like 5 times a day for about 4 months. She also let it be known that she is not attracted to me (even though she wants to be). She also said that she really likes me and wants to have feelings for me, but she doesn't. She said she was trying to make herself have feelings for me but she couldn't. The conversation ended with her saying that she didn't want to see me on Valentines (I'm guessing maybe she has other plans). She said that she doesn't want to stop talking to me though.Now all this may come across as intensly negative, but it was a moment of honesty from Jess and I respect that. I admit I was a little insulted that she was trying to force herself to fancy me. The thing you must understand about Jess is that she is genuinely a lovely girl and wouldn't ever deliberately hurt someone she cared about. When we were talking about not talking anymore we both thought it seemed like we were breaking up!It's funny; I think she wants to want me only she doesn't lol.

Call 2.
I called Naomi to see how she was after what I told her last night. She was understandably pissed off and gave me the obligatory disgusted crap (which might I add was exactly right). But then came the revelation that left me so stunned that after she hung up I held the phone to my ear for what must have literally been about 5or6 minutes. I didn't know what to do, what to think, how to feel. Naomi has been sleeping with the one guy that I didn't want her to but that I knew deep down she was. This guy Paul. Perhaps the only guy that I consider myself to be better looking than. I said to her that I still didn't like the idea of her shagging other people and she said "you'll be glad to know that I've had sex with Paul" and hung up. I seriously could NOT believe it.

I guess I must accept the fact that I am ugly!

I'm not going to stop looking for happiness, I just miss hugs and having someone tell me they love me.

I didn't mean to end this on such an emo-sombre note but that's how I feel, so now I will bid you adieu x

2006-02-06T17:36:00.000Z

I did something last night that I wasn't proud of. I told Nao that I'd been cheating on her while we were going out. I can't justify what I did, I know we were having a lot of trouble in our relationship and I was feeling neglected and as though I was making most of the effort. But I still wish more than anything that I had never done it.
Also spoke to Jess, this chick I like. Turns out she kissed some 'sexy guy' last night. I dunno if I really like her or not. She's all kinds of wrong for me, but there's still something about her. Even though she asked if I was 'proud' of her. She didn't mean to apparently, but still...
We might be going for a date on Valentines, not sure how smart that is but I enjoy spending time with her.
Might write more later.

2006-02-06T17:29:00.000Z

I was watching the news today about the muslim protests in London. I think the whole thing is disgusting and blown out of all proportion. Why is it that people can make fun of Christians with things such as the Jerry Springer Opera with no protests, only letter and petitions. But 10 cartoons have caused people to be killed http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/south_asia/4684652.stm it is terrible. There were people in London saying that they were going to commit attrocities in the UK and Europe yet there was not a single arrest? What happened to zero tolerance? This whole thing is messed up.
This cannot be allowed to continue un-checked.

2006-02-05T23:07:00.000Z

Come what may..?

Moulin Rouge was on Channel 5 tonight, I must confess I got a little bleary-eyed as this flick used to mean a lot to me. I know all the words to all the songs and 'Come what may' used to be a very important song to me. This movie as will the person that shall remain inextricably linked with it will always hold a special place in my heart.

"The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love, and be loved in return..."

2006-02-05T17:23:00.000Z

Had the worst night last night...
I was supposed to be working on the door in Chip but at around 7pm got conned into driving to Bristol to work at the Casino, which wasn't that bad if everything else had gone to plan cuz they are alledgedly giving me cash for it tomorrow. Thing is that the dude that I was working with was the prick that got me into shit for 'being drunk at work' when I was working new years. So yeah am not exactly cheerful with this wanker when I pick him up, but anyways we drive on regardless (I won't be working with him again) pretty uneventful drive until we get into Bristol where I fucking get flashed by another speed camera! Last time I drove to Bristol I did as well. Only thing is I think I was going like 60 in a 30 this time and is scaring the crap outta me as to wats gonna happen about it. I couldn't see the camera cuz it was sat on a traffic light I think so maybe I say that cuz they gots 2 be visible right??
We get to the casino n the valet parking dude is there and he takes my car away only I leave my hairgel in the car so am forced to start work with stupid fluffy-looking hair! I try water and that only has some kind of temporary effect but it reverts back to fluffy, so I get the dude to get my gel outta the car.
Then the lovely and charming Sarah is working at reception. Now Sarah is about as Bristolian as Brunel and sounds like it and has an attitudse problem that has to be seen to be believed!!! so that was pretty bad, then fucking Pete (the other doorman) kept disappearing to have coffees and cigarettes which was bad, but what really pissed me off was when I was walking around inside (admittedly talking to a fine-looking lady but that's irrelevant) he sent the valet guy to come find me and tell me that "I had to go to reception NOW!" so I'm thinking maybe something is happenind so I walk over quickluy but no, Pete wants a fucking coffee doesn't he!! Fucking bitch-ass-motherfucking-shitty-cocksmoking-prickboy. He has the gall to demand that I come over just so he can have a coffee? Who the fuck does he think it is, by now I'm seriously considering smacking him in his fucking goofy looking head. Maybe like 2 hours later I'm feeling hot so I'm standing by the entrance, which is no problem, I can stand there when guess who shows up? Pete. Pete says I have to go into reception and stand in a certain place cuz he now needs a piss. I mean seriously, I don't like being ordered around by someone in authority but this twat has none! Then, to put the fucking icing on the cake Nao calls me up saying that she's made me a pizza, not just any pizza either, my ultimate favourite pizza and she was going to bring it to me where I was working in Chippenham, but no. I'm not there am I? She didn't get my message telling her either until it was too late!

So to update..
I'm probably losing my driving licence AND getting a fine I can't afford to pay.
I worked with a fucking wanker.
I missed out on the Ultimate Pizza (Called a 'Happy Feast' ironically)

And all so I could get a measly whatever it is more in cash tomorrow which will be much less than the fine anyway.

It's messed up, seriously.

Oh and I also turned down hott sex with a better looking version of Chantelle only not so dappy cuz a) She was wasted and I am a gentleman, so will never take advantage (which yes can be annoying but doing the right thing feels good (Ok yeah possibly not as good as hott sex with a foxy chick but still quite good)) and b) I'm kinda hung up over sum1 else.

Anyway I'm bored, I'm going now...

2006-02-04T14:22:00.000Z

Had an interesting coupla days, never felt quite as tired as I did yesterday!
Was on the fone Thurs nite until like 2am, then as I had to leave the house at about 5(ish) I figured there was no point going to sleep so I watched the end of War of The Worlds instead. The movie took a little longer and I didn't end up leaving 'til 5:17 (I checked lol) Oh yeah, by the way I had to go pick up my Nan from Heathrow as she had just come back from visiting my Mummy in America. So Yeah, I left at 5:17 and arrived at Heathrow carpark at 6:30 which is kinda quick, but I went a new route so it's probably mostly the route...ahem... But yeah, got there at 6:30 and her flight wasn't landing 'til 6:40 so there was plenty of time. Got to arrivals, sat down and started doing some of my Politics coursework (no point wasting time is there) I didn't realise how bloody cold it was sitting next to the arrivals door, so I'm sat in Starbucks drinking hot chocolate doing work, watching the screens and freezing my ass off!! The Plane lands at 7:13 which is annoying as I've now been here 43 minutes and rushed to make sure I wasn't late. Then I'm trying to do work whilst glancing up to see when baggage for the flight arrives in the hall. All the other arrivals around it and quite a lot after it are all there but not flight BA202 from Detroit. It eventually shows up on the screen while I'm on my second cup of hot chocolate, so I pack my things away and wait by the gate (which is even colder than where I was just sat!) So anyways Nan doesn't come out until like 7.53!!! I rushed to get there and had to wait 83 minutes, can u believe that shit?? Lol!
The we drove back, after Snoop going mental in the car as she was happy to see Nan that is. We stopped at Reading services for gas and breakfast. Then drove to college (bear in mind I've still had no sleep!) Get there at about 10:20(ish) and so we ( me n Nan) go to the library. Nan reads her book and I do some more of my politics. Then I go2 my politics lesson and I'm desperately trying to keep my eyes open but my head keeps dropping and I make up some bullshit excuse why I can't do the second part of the lesson after lunch, dentist I think and go get Nan, drive home and sleep for 24 hours!!!

2006-02-01T22:17:00.000Z

I literally did nothing today and that's sooo bad. I have to pick up my Nan from the airport on Friday morning, early and have to clean the house and the car and stuff. I really can't be arsed! Oh I did take Snoop for a walk, but that's about it!
I'm watching the best film in the world right now, The Godfather Part II.

Well that's it for now, ttyl x

2006-02-01T22:05:00.000Z

I have been offered a place at Nottingham Uni to study law!! They were my first choice, I was so scared after taking my LNAT that my whole life hinged on one exam! Fortunately I did well, well obviously! I can't wait, I just have to work really really really hard now, this was the motivation I needed.
Watching Hollyoaks now anyway so I'd better go...